I'm just some dude with knowledge of the human condition beyond the filter of fear and insecurity down the core of person's essence of being human or toad. Other than that; I’m that man that sees the world from another’s shoes and reflects upon the existence of their happiness or misery while they themselves are controlled by their own fears and insecurities for which I see as strings to be pulled by some puppet master within or outside of their own existence.

I am who I am because of great pain, great fear, great hate, great forgiveness, great truth and great Love; all of which encompass one person, God. I guess you could say that I am who I am because of God. It is because of God that “I am”; I know this to be true because I am aware of the self.

Every person no matter who you are has deep epiphanies at one time or another. When they hit you something within resonates and that inner voice tells you that you've just figured something out. Most people acknowledge the truth and then it is lost to time and never applied and never pondered again. Many years ago I began taking note of my epiphanies in writing and with a Dictaphone that I would carry by my side. My epiphanies would come to me while I was in many different states of mind. I may have been sober or in some altered state of meditation. This note taking turned into my philosophical journal of truths that I have come to in my life. This Blog is my attempt to translate my philosophic journal into a poetic format. Let’s just face it, not many people would read a philosophy book. My goal is to submit my poetic prose to the Walt Whitman Award and my blog is my way of holding myself to the fire.


Sunday, August 21, 2011

Eternal Traveler

Here I lie in a cocoon of sheets

Deep in thought traveling in my own mind

Reflecting the history of events in my life

Feeling the hate

Experiencing the pain

Becoming addicted to my own rage

Coming to terms of my violent nature

Hating myself for events of my past

Judging others that remind me of me

Here I lie in a cocoon of sheets,

Set in space and time my body, my soul and my mind aches in this relative place

Little did I realize my eternal place.

Here I lie in a cocoon of sheets

My body resting in this world of time and space

Deep in thought traveling through my own soul

Remembering loves embrace

Questioning why God has put me in this place

For how my soul began to ache

At this time in my life when I lost loves embrace

Little did I realize the purpose of this place.

Here I lie in a cocoon of sheets

With hesitation but driven by my need to experience

I take in the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil

Now I lie in a cocoon of sheets

My body still resting in this world of time and space

Being held down by Satan's embrace

All my self hatred

All my judgments

Even the strength of my addiction to rage could not rescue me from this place

All of sudden like a great shock of truth the buzz came over me

"Holy shit" I'm no longer in this relative place stuck lying in a cocoon of sheets stuck in time and space.

Here my body lies wrapped in a cocoon of sheets being held down by demons I think

As a serpent winds around my body

The fear takes over me as my mind searches for an explanation and then I realize

With out a doubt

This body I call my own is not me, it's my shell lying in a cocoon of sheets.

When all reason failed to make my fear dissipate

I turned to God,

SNAP or maybe it was just a loud CRACK

"Surrender" "Surrender" "Surrender"

Here I lie in a cocoon of sheets

Traveling eternally within myself

Reflecting the history of events in my life

Seeing the beauty of my youth

Experiencing the beauty of the pain

Understanding the purpose of the hate

Appreciating the strength to overcome it

Holding no grudge

Feeling no hate

Experiencing the love and knowing the beauty

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